Mun Hee Kim

12steps meeting.

2010-03-16T05:53:00.001-07:00

Every thursday night we have 12steps meeting at Mission Possible in down-town e-side it has been a place for me .

Speically each time people come from UGM and share with us their recovery journies with God it is awesome and give me a joy and hope and I`ve learned about this only with God people can break through whatever they have in their lives.

So I wish that more people come to the meeting and hear what God has done for peoples` lives and how he leads them to break through and changes lives

~~Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free~~ (John 8: 32)

It`s been a good journey with YOU.

2010-03-16T05:03:00.001-07:00

It has been learning process being in Partners in Hope ministry almost for 3years and it was good and a big blessing for me although it wasn`t easy journey and several times I had thought about giving up but by God`s grace I am still here and it has been continued on and now I want to be more close to people who are in down town e-side and struggling their addictions.

God has brought me here and thought me many good things about Himself and people and myself so I would like to thank God and people who have been letting me in their lives directly or indirectly.

May God bless you all.!!

Hi, Merry Christmas!!

2009-12-16T09:43:00.001-08:00

When I heard about the Magi stroy in the bible I could think their humbleness.
They came from far East for seeing a new born King they were wise men and some people said they were kings when they saw a baby Jesus in manger they bow down and gave the gifts which they brought from their countries and they had a big joy to see heavenly King although it was baby.
Isn`t it great? and can you see their humble heart? If I was a king I wouldn`t be happy to know there was a new born king he would be greater than I am... well.. probably I would be like King Herod when he heard this he tried to find the baby and wanted to kill him... honestly...
I think this is human nature but the Magi who three kings they were different they were humble before God and praised God what he was doing..

This Christmas I need to think about my heart, attitude toward God and people and check my this things....

Thank you and may God bless you richly...^_^

One thought.

2009-12-16T09:28:00.000-08:00

I don`t agree when people put people who are struggling their drug or alcohol problem or homeless in the special category and think they are different from us. No, as my experiences they are not aliens just they have different issues which we all have different forms of it but in the society thinks drug or alcohol is more bad or serious than those so I disagree we are all equal before God and have the same problems it is sin.

(Last week when I heard peoples` sharing at 12steps meeting on Thursday night I thought about this again.)

An old man!

2009-07-10T19:25:00.000-07:00

When I was in Hamilton one day late evening I was walking on the street I saw an old man he was looking for something in the garbage cans. He was wearing dirty clothes and looked poor.
When I saw him I was sad and felt very sorry for him because he was an old man and seeking through garbage cans, so I prayed for him silently and left there, it was the only thing I could do for him.

This is my feeling for the people especially who are old and homeless I feel very bad and sad and very sorry for them.
As my idea, elderly people should not live that way and young people if they can they need to help or care for elders in some way but this man was a homeless and looking for something in the trash baskets.
Well, I don`t know what kind of life he has gone through I just want to say I am more sad if I see old people on the street as addicts or homelesses.

This is one of my experiences in the east Canada.

Thanks.

I hate when my frined curses by himself.!!

2009-06-29T00:45:00.000-07:00

I met him at down town E-side we are now good friend.
However I don`t like and I am very sad when he swears to himself (of course, to him it is a jok though to me it is self curse to himself) He had an accident for long time ago and now he is disabled. I can guess probably he has had tough time since his accident so maybe it changed him a lot specially toward life? honestly I don`t know but I can imagine how difficult it was to him...
If so then he can have some different idea of life...
Anyway he often says `to get hit by car` toward himself or others.
When I heard that what he said I told him I didn`t like it although he meant a joke I said it was a curse toward him and toward others I told him several times about it, the first time he didn`t agree with me but later he spoke to me `I am not going to say like that because you care about me I know that it is a love for friend`
I was happy when he mentioned about that so I hope that his those kind of speaking habits will be changed then use words of blessings more.

Thanks and God bless.!!

I got a nick name.!!

2009-06-29T00:28:00.000-07:00

Again I am here

Today `W` gave me a nick name it was `Energizer Bunny` and he explained to me what it is.
When I heard that I was happy and ecoureged because people can smile or be happy or be cheered up or have some good energy by bunny.(am I right? I hope my interpretation is right.^^)
If I do like that to people it is a good thing to do.(Of course, God is the all source of it.)
and I want to be like that continually for the people(who need to be encouraged) and for myself as well.

And so today I got a new nick name and it is good and I am happy for that.

Isn`t it cute `Energizer Bunny`?

Thanks.^-^

Because of my frined.

2009-06-29T00:06:00.000-07:00

I started to write again here because today I heard it from my frined he read my experiences in this blog. Well, honestly I was encouraged by him although my writing wasn`t good but he understood what I wrote. (thank you `D` ^_^)

Anyway so now I am going to write one thing today`s my experience.
Today is Sunday so many people came to house for I was in the backyard with people and talking to them then suddenly I wanted to pray for this person(at that time I was with `W`)
and so I just prayed for him without asking him he liked it or not I just did it. In this my reaction, graciously he recieved my prayer and gave thank to me. Wow!! and so I did it to others as well(I prayed) I don`t know why I just wanted to do it for the people then peoples recived it. Praise the Lord!!^0^
Through this experience I was happy for being used by God and people who let me pray for them. I truely appreicate their acceptance of who I am and understanding of what I am doing here.
This is one of blessings from God for me.

Thanks guys and have a good night and God bless.^^
(Oh! now late time to go to bed.^^)

Tonight my visiting girls in jail.

2009-04-14T00:05:00.000-07:00

Tonight I visited girls at ACCW.
I have two girls there and they will be out soon so we had conversations about what they are going to do for their recovery after jail. Both of them are going to treatment centre and for a while they will live there and do recovery program. When I heard that I was happy and gave thanks to God because before one of girls she didn`t want to go to a treatment and wanted to live with her boyfriend but it has been changed and now she is planing to go to a rehab program.

As a W2 worker I have been honest with her it means I heard two weeks ago she shared her plan with me she was going to be with her boyfriend and so I told her it wasn`t a good idea and would be harmful for her and her boyfriend for her boyfriend has had the same problem like her (drug problem) I knew she didn`t want to hear that and wouldn`t listen to me yet I wanted to say that for her and I did it and then today she appreciated what I said to her with my honesty it also gave her to think about what is right thing to do, actually it made me feel good and gave me a thought how important being honest and saying that what is right thing to do for them
then if it will be good for them although they don`t want to listen to(of course it needs wisdom) or wouldn`t listen to at that moment however they will know or can see my care for them.

Anyway I had a good visit and was encouraged by them and happy about being a W2.

`May God bless them and guide their recovery and last of their lives.`

Thanks and have a good night.^_^

Acceptance, Acceptance.!! Equal, Equal

2009-02-24T00:31:00.000-08:00

It doesn`t matter what have you done, who you are, what skin color you have, what language you speak where you live a good house or on the street, you are rich or poor, God accepts everyone, his love is for everybody, God sees people equally,this is my most important learning through Partners in Hope ministry.

Peoples in Down Town e-side

2009-02-21T19:16:00.001-08:00

This morning I went to down town e-side and I saw many people there and they were on drug because this week has a welfareday. When I looked at them I was sad and kept asking myself `who want to be an addict? who want to live like that? why them? what has dragged them into drug? or alcohol or living on the street? what is that? How can we help them?`
This thought had stayed in my mind all day long today and now I am still thinking and asking God to rescue the people who have been addicts from their addictions and bondages because I know only God can do that.

This is God`s grace.

2009-02-17T00:03:00.000-08:00

I visit the girls in ACCW every other monday night.
Tonight I had a good visit and I was encouraged by the girls whom I have visited since last time because they were nice and kind and also shared their lives stories with me inspite of my language limitation. When I thought about this how can it happen to me? how can I be here and listen to them? and why they tell me about themselves? then I got the answer `it is God because of him I am doing it now and it happens to me here.`
I am so grateful for the fact God is with me and he uses me fnevertheless limitations which I have in many area of myself just God works through me this is a big grace and without him I can not do this visiting.`

This was tonight my thought and experience.

Thanks and have a good night.

Hi everyone `Happy New Year`

2009-01-03T00:12:00.000-08:00

I am late to say `Happy New Year!!` but I would like to say `Happy New Year!!` because today is only January 3rd so I can still say it. ^0^

And I want to tell you one more thing this thursday night meeting at Mission Possible we had a special person. Why was this person special? for as I heard Elsie and Lorna have known him over 10years but he never had been to our meeting however on this thursday night meeting he was there.!!
When we saw him we was so happy and praised the Lord.
It means eventually he opened up his heart and listened to people who love him and care for him and what they said to him for his clean so the night he came.

Through my experience I can say sometimes it is hard to tell to the people whom we want to help and care for because even though they know what they need to do if so we suggest something for them yet they don`t want to do anything about it until when they are ready or they truly feel they need to get help then we can see them doing something for themselves therefore when he came to the meeting we were suprised and gave thank to God.

Through the night experience I learned about this is a relationship, love and trust if Elsie and Lorna was not there such a for long time for him then he wouldn`t be at Mission Possible but he already knew their love for him it doesn`t matter what you have been through he has experienced Elsie and Lorna they were always there because of that he could come to the meeting on this thursday night.

I am glad to write about this and I can say that was one of many good things which we will have through whole this year I want to share it with you.

Thanks and lots of blessings.^-^

We miss our friend.

2008-12-18T22:38:00.000-08:00

We Partners in Hope have lots of friends we thanks for that however tonight we missed one of our friends at our meeting because he was not there and we don`t know where he is now.
When he was clean he was always at our thursday night meeting and went to church together and had fun together we love him so much though tonight he was not there and lately we haven`t seen him for few weeks, honestly now we worry about him and want to know and see him everything is okey to him.

Tonight we had a fun and good time with Santa however we also grieved about our friend.
We hope that he doesn`t miss this Christmas and comes back to God and to us before Christmas to come.

Thanks and have a good sleep.

See you at our house!!

2008-12-15T22:35:00.000-08:00

Today I went to radio cafe in down town(actually I don`t know what street name is)
Because I wanted to see one of my friends, as I know he usted come there and spend time with people so I went to the cafe but he was not there.
And so I was a little bit disappointed for I have not seen him for few weeks therefore I wanted to know how he is doing and I wanted to invite him to come over to our house on Christmas day however I didn`t have a chance to talk to him today because of his absence there!!
Therefore I hope to see him before Christmas and tell him
`Come join us our Christmas party at out house(he knows where I live in), I want to celebrate this Christmas with you. I don`t want you to be alone(If you have a plan with your friends or family then I am happy about that but if you will be alone?!! then I want you to come to our house and have a good time with us.)`

I want to invite people who are alone and lonly in this season to our Christmas party.
Specially whom I have met in down town E side.
I go to down town Main and Haistings street and do prayer walk 3days a week then I can see many people who are on drug or alcohol and I also can see their struggles and loneliness hopeless on them. It gives me grief.
So I appreciate what Partners in Hope we are doing for those people during in this season
We have gifts for the people(we will bring the gifts to down town at Christmas Eve night and hand them out to the people) and party at our house on Christmas Eve and Christmas day even new year eve day, we don`t want the people to be alone or lonely we want to be with them as their family as their friends, therefore I wanted to see my friend today although I didn`t see him(Oh! I have his phone number then I can call him...^-^)

Anyway this is my today`s experience
Thanks and see you at our house when Christmas comes!!

(P.S : Of course, Elsie and we will work more for it but it`s our pleasure of you.!!^0^)

Oh! my enlish...!!! please give mercy on me..!!!

2008-12-14T01:42:00.000-08:00

I am now staying up because tonight I had a coffee and the caffeine gave me no sleep.
So just now I read my writings again on my blog then I can see my English writings....
Oh! what a my English....!! although I knew that but anyway I feel Z.Z.Z...
Then I think `I need to work it out and hopefully whoever read my writings they can see what my experiences was rather than my English...
This is my new(?) hope to you...!!
Thanks and Merry and Happy Christmas~~^0^

I patted me on the back!! ^-^

2008-12-10T23:52:00.000-08:00

Today I met one of my friends at Carnegie centre.
Actually this meeting was my suggestion to him.
Because whenever I saw him I could feel that he has looked like angry with something,
it gave me some thoughts about him so I would like to meet him and listen to his story so last week when I saw him at down town I told him carefully what I see in him and if he is okey then I want to meet him and hear about what it is, after listende to me he said `yes I can meet you and tell about it` therefore today I saw him at Carnegie and heard about a little bit of his life story. He was nice to me and shared his life journey honestly what he had gone through and where his life is now...
It was a good meeting and I enjoyed it and I also appreciated his openness toward me for I could feel his honesty while we had converstion.

Today I was happy for this meeting, the reason was generally it is not easy to tell our stories if we don`t trust the person and we don`t know how the person thinks after share our stories with him or her, however, today through this meeting I could pat me on the back and I said to myself `you are good and trustworthy it means he knew your care for him so he could share with his story!!`

It sound likes silly but I was encoureged by this and gave thanks to God for knowing me what kind person I am.
Thanks and this is today`s my story.

Have a good day!! ^0^

Christmas and motherhood

2008-12-09T15:36:00.000-08:00

I am one of w2 members, thankfully God opened the door since June in this year.
As a w2 member I have been visiting the women who are in jail at Maple ledge.
I go there every other week on Monday night with many women who want to help those people.
I have enjoyed this visiting and made new friends there.

Last night in jail we had a Christmas party it was a good and everybody enjoyed the time.
And also Elsie took the gifts bags(over one hundreds bags) with her and gave it to the women there, when they had these they were happy and knew somebody cared for them they are not alone. It was a great opportunity to see how peoples` care for others(who are lost) can make the people (who are lost) feel different way `I am not alone, I am not abandoned because out there somebody thinks of me and care for me.` It was a really good experience to me.

However I also could have a sad experience the same day it means I could see some of the women who are mom they didn`t look happy and looked sad because they have missed their kids a lot, specially this Christmas season is not easy to be there as a mom.
In a little while, one of my friends whom I have visited since this October, she finally broke down and wept while we were watching a puppet play, for she has a 5years old son but she can not be
with him because she is now in jail and the party gave her some Christmas memory with son before.
When I saw her crying I did not know what to say and how to comfort her,
because I am not a mom and don`t have a kid, honestly I don`t know what motherhood is, how painful it was as a mom, of course at that moment I could say to her some good thing but I did not want to pretend to her `yes, I know your heart how painful is!`

Anyway at that time I wanted to comfort her so I told her ` you know what? you have next year Christmas because of that now you are here and learn how to be clean and sober and never again come back here and that bad things, am I right?` and then she responsed to me `yes, next year Christmas I will be with my son and I don`t want to come back here again.` after this conversation she went back to the gym(the party place) and participated the party.
And yet I knew she was still sad but she tried to be happy and enjoy it.

This was a my sad experience last night as well.
After jail on the way home I prayed to God his blessings for the women whom I saw the night at the party and their kids I also hoped that next year Christmas my friend will be with her son and have a happy Christmas.

This was my first Christmast party experience in jail with the women who need our care.

Thanks and happy Christmas.!!

We know your real heart.!!

2008-11-14T17:31:00.000-08:00

Today we had one of our partners in hope friends he was at food-co-0p and helped us.
Because yesterday I saw him at Carnegie centre I asked him `Could you come tomorrow for food-co-op?` he said `No I am busy I can`t`.
However he was with us today and gave his hands for help!!.
I watched just before the video Elsie took `why did you come?`
He was in the video and he said, he likes to help others and has been doing volunteer works for many years. When I was watching him in the video I could see he has a great heart for others so wants to help, although he responded to me `No` but it was not his real heart, his heart was already with us here and wanted to come and help.
I am glad to see that video and I would like to say to him.
`Thanks for coming today and please don`t say to us `no` because we know your heart you like to do good works for the people who need your help, so don`t pretend you don`t want, for we have the evidence about you.^-^`

Thanks a lot and have good weekend.

The LORD is my shepherd.

2008-10-30T18:28:00.000-07:00

Life is never easy and I am powerless.
This psalm reminds me,
the LORD is with me, he takes care for me all the time.

Psalm 23

1. The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

2. He makes me lie down in green pastures,

he leads me beside quiet waters,

3. He restores my soul.

he guides me in paths of righteousness for his name`s sake.

4. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,

I will fear no evil, for you are with me;

your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

5. You prepare a table before me

in the presence of my enemies.

You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.

6. Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,

and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

``They are not different!!``

2008-10-10T21:38:00.000-07:00

1. I like our thursday night meeting at mission possible.
Because I can see or hear how God transforms peoples lives although it is long process but God never give up his loving children. I also can experience peoples` honesties even though it is shame or guilt or pain people share it with others.
I really feel blessed by these.

Last night meeiting was like that and it confirmed me this my thought again.
WE were talking about `commitment`
People shared with us their struggles of this topic or others said they are learning it now,
yet how difficult it is.
When I heard all of these stories I could think this again
`These people are not different from ordinary people which means when society sees these people who are addict or homeless they are not ordinary and they are lower member of society ` but to me of course not. Those people who have drug or alcohol problems or street people, yes, probably their life styles are different but their problems can not change their value and dignity.
When I got this thought I was so pleased and gave thanks to God for he has put me in this ministry and changed my point of views like God sees people.
It is big big blessing for me.

Thanks God I praise you and honor you.

2.Last night at the meeting I asked my friend who came from UGM about one guy he was in UGM program. As I remember he would graduate in this month but my friend said to me `he left before oneday his graduation.`
When I heard it I truly felt very sorry for him and I could guess why? because about one month ago when we had thursday night meeting at our house he told me his fear of what next step will be after his graduation, at that time I told him someone`s story and encouraged him to share his worry with others not to hold in himself and I said I would prayed for him. Actually I prayed for him several times however he left there.
Of course, It gave me a discouragement but I know also this is a process of recovery and I believe that he knows God, although he is now own his way, and yet God is with him and God never let his children go far away from him.
Tonight before go to bed I will pray for him.

It is growing!!

2008-10-06T21:25:00.000-07:00

This morning I was helping breakfast at the drop-in on 16th fraiser st.
One guy came to me first and warmly said `Hi MunHee`
When I heard this I was very pleased and gave thanks to God.
Because it showed me my relationship with people whom I have met at the drop-in has been growing up and there was more openness I felt.
In this case I have known him and his girl friend only few month but lately whenever she sees me she hugs me first and she calls my name and tells me what her feeling or life condition is.
He has seen that and then he probably started to think I am their friend.
So today he showed this feeling toward me.
I am so thankful to God this and praise Him

Thanks my friend.

2008-10-05T20:31:00.000-07:00

I have a friend.
He is a nice man and cares people, he has a girl friend however his girl friend has a drug and mental problems.
He loves her so much although it is tough but he always cares for her.

After morning church on the way to our house he saw his girl friend was walking on the hastings street she seemed to be on drug and look for something. When my friend saw this I could see he was in pain and wanted to get off the van to ran to her but he didn`t do it.
After lunch, at 3 :30 pm usually we give people a ride to down town, at that time my friend was in the car he was going to see his girl friend and help, when I saw this I called him and told
`It is not good for you and you can not rescue her you will be more hurt instead. Stay here and go to church ask God for help.`
He agreeded what I said and knew he couldn`t help but he cared so just wanted to see she was okay. I knew that how much he loves and cares for her yet he can not do anything for her at all.
Tankfully he listend to me and didn`t go to down town and then he came to afternoon church with me.

When I was in Partners in Hope ministry first time I was like him I wanted to help and rescue people so I phoned many time to my friends make sure they were okay because I cared for them a lot. Later when I was in a different ministry I learned and knew it was not right and I couldn`t help them.
Therefore, today how could I say it to my friend? The reason is I`ve been there and I knew what it was.

This is one of my experiences today and I give thank to God and my friend who didn`t refuse my advice.

God bless you whoever reads this.^_^

down town experience.

2008-10-04T23:23:00.000-07:00

Today when I was walking along the street on east hastings I saw a man he was passing by me.
He looked like a homeless and no hope on his face.
When I knew this I was sad and felt sorry for him and I questioned to myself.
`Who want to be a homeless! who wants no hope? when people were born did they want to have these kind of lives? No!.` but as a human being we have a tendency we often ignore those people, honestly I was...(maybe not ignored them but I didn`t think they are the same human being like normal ordinary people.) however since I `ve been in this ministy I have learned people we are equal before God it doesn`t matter what we`ve done God looks at us as his lovely children he wants us to know the truth and his heart is more close to broken hearts.
I had briefly this thought and prayed for him in silence.
This is today`s my one of experiences at down town.

pictures of downtown vancouver

2008-09-26T18:28:00.001-07:00

Video of Mun Hee's Ministry in Vancouver

2008-09-26T18:11:00.000-07:00

Elsie and I were talking about my ministry in Vancouver with Partners in Hope. Here's a video as we talk together.

Friday, September 26 -- Food Co-op Outreach

2008-09-26T16:55:00.000-07:00

Today was exciting for me. We made food deliveries to friends that I have known for some time and in one case the living condition was much better now than it was before. Someone who was needing housing now has their own place and a good relationship with family.

I was happy to pray for several other people who had physical problems. I know that God cares for them and wants to use these opportunities to show them how much he cares. I will visit someone who is in hospital. I want to encourage people not just deliver food to them and befriend them.

At another house we visited a woman who is struggling with her addiction. One of the Partners in Hope women has been her friend for a long time and she is so thankful for this person who has been a real help and a real friend. This woman was so happy to see us come. That's what we want with many people ... to be their friend in a way that brings joy to them. I pray for this woman that God will protect her from harmful people and harmful circumstances.

At another house where we delivered food to a large family, the son was there when we brought the food and he was interested in volunteering. I asked him if he was available next week and he agreed to come. My prayer for him is that through this experience he will see what Christians are like and gain some desire to get to know Jesus.

I had much joy in doing this simple work of delivering food.

Thursday September 25

2008-09-25T14:58:00.000-07:00

Today it was raining but I was happy to have some time downtown anyway. At Radio Cafe I met John and Sandy and a few other women friends. We greeted each other. After cheque day there were some folks who looked like they were having a difficult time. My prayer for them is that they would be able to live clean and sober and know Jesus. I want to see different and transformed lives for them.